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21 February 2012

Beliefs Fade As We Grow

                        As children we trust, listen, and believe in what our elders tell us. Our parents try to protect us from the wrong doings of the world. Most humans are sheltered from this information until our teenage years and we as people start to understand what actually goes on in the world. Everyone experiences different things in their childhood that makes them who they are. In the memoir Persepolis by Marjane Satrapi, Satrapi shares how she loses faith in both her religious views and the Iranian revolution as she ages through out the story.

            Marji’s early childhood was shaped on religion. She looked up to God, had conversations with him every night, and she was certain she was the last prophet. For Example in the very beginning of the story Marji shows her belief by saying “I really didn’t know what to think about the veil. Deep down I was very religious but as a family we were very modern and avant-garde. I was born with religion.” (6) Marji knew that she wanted to be a prophet by the age of six and kept her own holy book, just like her predecessors. She did not understand why her maid was not allowed to eat with the family and why her grandmother’s knees hurt so she wrote down her own rules when for when she became a prophet. She addressed problems that were not necessarily major issues in her rules, showing how she was naïve in dealing with the outside world. In addition Marji displayed her connection to religion by talking with God, “Every night I had a discussion with God… I wanted to be justice, love and the wrath of God all in one.” (8-9) Marji would lie in bed every night and had a conversation with God, this shows that she was believed that she had a special connection with him. Marji’s childish imagination allowed her to think that God was the answer to all of her problems. As a young girl she was not able to see past what her parents and peers were telling her about religion and God explaining her strong beliefs.

            As Marji grew up she began to experience things that were not controlled by religion and some outcomes that might make her unhappy. These experiences started her rebellion against the Iranian revolution and her overall outlook on religion. For example when she finds out Kaveh is leaving Iran to move to the United States she states “I think I really liked this boy… Actually I liked him very, very much. It was the end of the world!” (63) After learning more about what the government is doing to the rebellious Iranian citizens and how corrupt the government has become Marji watches her friend move away. This affects her in a way more than that of the stories that she has heard because it is her first personal experience. Marji loses faith towards her government and God during this tragedy. Secondly, when she has begun to gain a temptation to rebel she is drawn in by her friends to ditch class, “No, we’ve got physical education but were not going. We’re going for burgers.’ ‘ I wasn’t chicken, so I followed them. I had already broken the rules once by going to the demonstration in ’79 this was the second time.’” (111) Marji now is knowingly going against what she knows is the right thing to do. Even though she is only going out for burgers rather than going to class she is showing the signs of losing her old beliefs just like almost all humans do as they grow older. Marji has realized that things are not perfect even if you believe in God and she sees what really is going on in her country. These factors ignite her rebellious behavior.

            Towards the end of the story and the start of Marji’s teenage years she continues to lose faith in everything that she used to believe in and now starts to rebel more drastically. Firstly, Marji rebels against her mother once again after she yells at her for cutting class, “As for me, I sealed my act of rebellion against my mother’s dictatorship by smoking the cigarette I’d stolen from my uncle two weeks earlier… Now I was grown up.” (117) Marji is now rebelling against her mother right after she was caught cutting class. She knows that her mother won’t allow her to smoke cigarettes so she smokes one to prove that she is independent and now a woman. In addition Marji speaks to God for the last time after experiencing many tragic deaths to her loved ones, “Shut up, you! Get out of my life!!! I never want to see you again! And so I was lost without any bearing… What could be worse than that.” (70-71) For the first time in Marji’s life she has totally lost faith in God and wants him to never come back to talk to her. This was a major turning point in her life because she has put all of her faith into God and now is taking him out of her life completely. These events in her life effected what she used to love and look up to more than anything so greatly that she is willing to throw it all away. Lastly, Marji expresses her feelings in a way that she has never before, “After the death of Neda Baba-Levy, my life took a new turn. In 1984, I was fourteen and a rebel. Nothing scared me anymore.” (143) Marji’s life has now fully turned around, she knows that she is a rebel and will not allow anyone to effect her viewpoints. She fully lost her faith in God and is now rebelling as much as she can against the government. She is old enough to realize what is happening in her life and how she now has the power to control it. Marji changed in a major way during her story and has now completely lost faith in God and the Iranian government.

            Marji went through many tough experiences through out her childhood causing her understand the world in a different way than she thought it was like as a little girl. Marji worshiped God and her religion very intensely when she was a child. She would have conversations with God every night and even had dreams of being a prophet. This all changed from Marji after she experienced how harsh the world can be. She lost friends and family because of the Iranian revolution and this had a major impact on her religion. By the end of the story Marji was fully rebelling against the revolution and was not as religious as she was when she was a young girl. Marji went through many major experiences through her life that caused her to be who she is today.